50 questions that will free your mind – part nine

If someone would’ve told  me I’d almost complete a survey that made me question my existence big time, then I probably would’ve laughed a bit. Yet, here we are. 8 parts down, only 2 to go.

41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
I’d say my mum, since she is the one who raised me to be the person I am this day. I’m eternally grateful that she is a part in my life, so I’d definitely stop by to see her.
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The joys of being a communication student – presentations

Presentations. Some will love giving them, other people would rather fake being sick just so they don’t have to do them. These people often think that they’re not good enough at talking or entertaining an audience. Don’t worry, it’s something that is easily learned.

Fear no more, because as a communication student I come across dozens of helpful videos, bar charts and articles when it comes to acing a presentation. This one might be a personal fave and I’d suggest watching this if you want a funny and good insight of what a succesful presentation consists of.

Now it’s time for me to excuse myself, I have a presentation to prepare. May this video send good vibes to me.

50 questions that will free your mind – part eight

Now that June has almost reached its halfway point, and the summer holiday is coming closer, I start to notice that I get even more determined to actually finish this questionnaire. 7 parts down, 3 to go.

36.  Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
Definitely not. We humans aren’t perfect creatures. We make mistakes, screw up and blame people for things they did not do. Then how can we perfectly know what good and evil is?
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A letter to my Sharpie markers

Dear Sharpie markers,

Every time I open your colourful lid, your penetrating odor reaches my nostrils. The result is a near-being-high experience, no drugs needed. Despite this smell, I still love you to death. Not because of the beautiful colours that fill my paper once I glide the tip over it, not because of how nice they are to hold, no, because every single last aspect of you is perfect, well, except one tiny little thing…

Why do you bleed through everything I love? When I’m casually using you on a piece of paper, mindlessly drawing and not taking any precautions, such as putting several other paper scraps underneath to prevent you from bleeding onto our dining table (sorry mom). It really seems as if bleeding through is your hobby, or as I’d like to say it:it seems as if you are experiencing terrible period pains and tend to experience these mood swings by bleeding through.

This brings me to my second point of complaint. You guys love, and I mean really love, to abuse my lovely piece of paper. What did that sad little paper do wrong? Nothing, I guess. But as if you are the schoolbully, you tend to leave a path of destruction behind every time I’m not fast enough to lift you off the page again. Look what you’ve done, this is probably why all of my paper has trust issues.

Oh, lovely sharpies, I really love you all to death. I’ve been using you at least once a day since I got you last december and I really don’t plan on breaking my habit anytime soon. I admit, I love to complain about you, to whine and to freak out whenever a new colourful spot is added to our already ruined table, but deep down inside of me, I love you.



P.S does anyone know how to remove sharpie permanent markers from a wooden table?

50 questions that will free your mind – part seven


University is a time for personal growth. You’re not in high school anymore, not obligated to eat at a certain time, to show up to class or not do stuff you don’t enjoy. It’s truly a time for finding out who you really are, and by filling out this questionnaire, one part at a time, I hope to find out who this ‘Student Pamela’ really is. 

31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
I think it was right after starting university. I finally found something I truly enjoy studying and my heart was racing when I realised all of the lovely jobs that I could do after graduating. That burning passion inside of me is still there and I doubt it goes away anytime soon.
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Don’t know what to journal about? 10 journaling prompts for you!

Does the following thing sound familiar to you? Wanting to journal, whipping out all of your journaling supplies and opening that precious little book of yours, but coming to the conclusion that you have the worst journaling block ever? Stop worrying and look no further. I’ve compiled a list with 10 journaling prompts specially for you!

1. Doodle your favorite painting

2. Write the life story of a stranger you saw today. Make it as detailed as you want!

3. Look up your horoscope and reflect on it. Did any of the things become reality?

4. If today was a colour, what would it be?

5. Songs you sing in the shower

I doodled Sterrennacht (Starry Night) by Vincent van Gogh

6. Write a letter to your favorite inanimate object

7. Glue in as much bits and bots you can find in your favorite colour. Don’t worry about not making it pretty

8. Doodle the meaning of all of your names

9. Look at this article with the 100 most beautiful words in English, pick one and write about it

10. Go for a walk in your neighbourhood and collect things, such as leaves, that you find on the street

Be sure to tag me on instagram @pamjournals if you plan on doing one of these prompts! I’m really curious to see what beautiful entries will be the result of these!

50 questions that will free your mind – part six


I’d like to think of myself as a dedicated person, whether it comes to university assignments, personal things or blogposts. Since we’ve crossed the halfway point of this blogseries already, that feeling keeps growing, as well as the knowledge I have of myself.

26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Considering I’m only 18 at the moment and have a whole life in front of me to live, I’d say lose all of my old memories. Right now, I’m in university which means I make tons and tons of memories and not being able to make them for the next three years frightens me.

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The perks of being Dutch

‘Wait, what country do you live in again?’
Ah, The Netherlands: a beautiful country in western Europe, known for many things: canals, flowers and being as flat as a pancake.
Living in a country like this has its perks, but I doubt that foreigners know them all, so that’s why I’ve tried to compile a list with some of them:

1. Climate change
If the sea level rises just a little bit more thanks to the wonderful thing called climate change, one thing’s for sure: we are so, so, so screwed. A big part of our country is below sea level and, surprise, that part is the most densely populated. Oh well, I hope everyone’s swimming skills are up to date…

2. Bikes
17 million people, 23 million bikes. Wait, what? No, that wasn’t a typo, it’s true! We Dutch people have mastered the skill of gracefully cycling in the pouring rain while balancing a screaming child and two heavy grocery bags on our handlebar quite well over the years. Tourists always seem amazed by these circus-like scenes and are often eager to try it as well. Sadly, cycling in the city centre of Amsterdam when you’ve never even touched a bike seems more like a suicide attempt than a fun thing to do. Every time when I try to make my way through the city centre, I come across dozens of flocks of scared tourists whose faces shows nothing but fear.
Pamela’s pro-tip of the day for tourists: the tram is your enemy and when you hear its bell it means that you have exactly 3 seconds to move out of the way  before you’ll be as flat as our country.

3. ‘Hagelslag’
Chocolate sprinkles on toast. Sounds weird, right? What’s even weirder is that pretty much everyone eats it. Yes, even grown ups. Do you want chocolate sprinkles? We have it. Fruit flavored sprinkles? We got you covered. Licorice flavor? We’ll proudly pass it on. Conclusion: we Dutch people love our sprinkles

4. Weed
Soft drugs are legal here and, when you’re walking through certain parts of Amsterdam, you’ll be amazed by the number of coffeeshops (don’t get these confused with coffee bars where you can actually buy coffee) and stoned tourists you’ll encounter. However, it’s a myth that all Dutch people are stoners. Just because we have unlimited access doesn’t mean we’re high 24/7, well, maybe some are.

5. We have the best swear words
Smeerlap, afgelikte boterham, doos, flapdrol, klerezooi. The list goes on and on… The Dutch are pretty creative when it comes to their swear words. Period.

6. Birthday calendars in the smallest room
In the digital age, lots of people scroll through their Smartphone when visiting the smallest room. We Dutch people however, look at our calendar. Yes, pretty much every home has a calendar with birthdays hanging in there. So, when you’re taking your time, look at the birthdays and figure out you just forgot your mother-in-laws’ birthday, that’s a perfect time to yell ‘shit’ .

Ah, the Netherlands. Lovely country, right?

50 questions that will free your mind – part five

I just realised the final part on this questionnaire series will be posted a few days after I finish my first year at university. Coincidence or not? Enough with the rambling, time for you guys to find out more about me as well.

21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
I’d rather be the joyful simpleton! Worrying to the extreme isn’t a healthy thing to do, so I’d rather live a simple but joyful life than worry about all these tiny kinds of things.

22. Why are you, you?
I am ‘me’ because I was born this way, shaped by my environment and all of the experiences I had up until now. No one in this entire world did everything in the exact same order as I did, so that means that no one is the same as me. I am ‘me’, the only ‘me’ walking around on this earth.

23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
Without sounding overly cocky, I have. I try my hardest to always stay polite and be reasonable when it comes to people. Not only because that’s a nice thing to do, but also because you never know people their stories.

24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
We currently live in the digital age where people their hands seem to be glued to their Smartphones and everyone has Whatsapp or somethingsimilar, so I’d say it’d be to lose touch with a good friends who lives near me.

25. What are you most grateful for?
This is a really hard thing for me to answer. Not because I’m never grateful, but because there a many, many things I’m grateful for. ‘The most grateful’ sounds very daunting, since I always pay attention to the small things. If I had to say anything, it’d be the fact that I live right here, right now with the people I love.

Wait? Did any of you notice that that was question 25 already? We’re halfway there! Time really seems to fly when you fill out these kind of questionnaires.


50 questions that will free your mind – part four

‘Consistency’, yes, that’s a word that I love. Being able to do something on the right moment, at the right time. Today marks the fourth consecutive week already of me filling out this questionnaire in order to find out more about myself, quite consistent right?

16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
I think it’s because every single human being is unique. There are seven billion people on this earth and if everyone loved the same things, life would be so boring. You’ll never have your own little thing or secret that makes you happy, since everybody around you would love it too. When I was born, I got my own blueprint and for the last 18 years, I’ve been erasing certain parts and redrawing some things. The result is a unique human being with unique qualities and a unique taste when it comes to loving things.
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